First notebook: people as a mystery
Yōzō grows up in a wealthy northeastern household but describes other people’s ways of living and concealing feelings as incomprehensible. His memories include fear within the household and abuse he feels unable to report.
Clowning as a way to stay connected
He develops a clowning persona: appearing cheerful and deliberately making himself ridiculous to amuse others. He describes this as a last means of maintaining human contact. The gap between an entertaining surface and inner fear recurs throughout the book.
Second notebook: Takeichi sees through the act
At school, Yōzō deliberately fails a gymnastic exercise to make the class laugh. Takeichi quietly recognises the performance, alarming him. Takeichi also responds to his painting, making art another strand of their relationship.
Tokyo, painting, and Horiki
In Tokyo, Yōzō meets Horiki through painting lessons. Drinking, sexual relationships, money problems, and clandestine political activity enter his life. The connections he hopes will ease isolation instead become increasingly difficult to manage.
Tsuneko’s death and Yōzō’s survival
The second notebook follows his relationship with Tsuneko, a café worker, and a joint suicide attempt in which she dies and he survives. Expulsion, arrangements for his supervision, and guilt carry into the third notebook.
Third notebook: dependence and cartoon work
After coming under a family acquaintance’s supervision, Yōzō lives with Shizuko and her daughter and earns money drawing cartoons. He later leaves them and stays with the bar madam. Dependence on others, temporary stability, and flight alternate.
Mother, daughter, and the rabbit behind the door
Before leaving, Yōzō has been pawning Shizuko’s clothes to pay for drink. Returning after staying away, he overhears mother and daughter and sees them chasing a young white rabbit. Her laughter makes him imagine a modest happiness that his presence will eventually destroy. He closes the door and leaves the apartment for good.
They do not expel him in this scene. Leaving is his action; the claim that he will ruin their happiness is the explanation he supplies. Earlier, the daughter’s wish for her real father has already made him feel separated from her. Care and earnings do not end that estrangement: he depends on the household while describing himself as unable to belong in it.
Yoshiko, trust, and rupture
Marriage to Yoshiko brings a period of stability. After she is sexually assaulted by an acquaintance, his understanding of trust is shaken and drinking and drug dependence intensify. The events and their effects reach us through Yōzō’s memories and explanations.
From an appeal for help to a locked ward
As dependence grows, Yōzō writes to his father for help and waits without an answer. Horiki and his guardian Shibuta then arrive, urge hospitalisation, and offer to handle the rest. Moved by Horiki’s unusually gentle smile, he follows them into a car; Yoshiko accompanies them. He expects a sanatorium and only identifies a psychiatric hospital when a ward door is locked behind him.
He moves from being placed there to imagining that he will henceforth be treated as mad, then declares himself disqualified. Other people’s arrangements, his compliance, and his interpretation of both form the immediate setting of that declaration. He also gives unusual significance to refusing the drug on arrival. The narrative records his self-understanding, not evidence of a medical cure.
Hospitalisation and the notebooks’ end
His brother later takes him back to the northeast to recuperate away from Tokyo. At the notebooks’ end, Yōzō gives his age as twenty-seven and describes feeling neither happiness nor unhappiness. The framing afterword does not turn this into a confirmed death: the madam does not know whether he remains alive.